Conflict arise
Anger bubbling
Conversation get heated
It seems to me
that you were picking sides
And it wasn’t mine
I don’t need all
I just need some who matters
To make it through
Cause i know
Closure is no where in sight
Anger bubbling
Conversation get heated
It seems to me
that you were picking sides
And it wasn’t mine
I don’t need all
I just need some who matters
To make it through
Cause i know
Closure is no where in sight
They said time heals
But do they said for how long?
How long does you have to suffer in silence?
How long does it takes for you to be okay?
How many nights of crying yourself to sleep?
1 year? 5 years? 50 years?
What if by the longest years possible it still hurts?
What then?
Is this feeling going to change?
Is feeling the pain in my chest
-a twinge actually
A bad thing?
Does it mean i’m selfish or a sign that i care?
So what if i’m beyond caring,
Does it mean i’m mature or don’t care enough?
There will be no clear answer, unfortunately.
I’m just stuck here wondering what went wrong with no solution to it.
After all these precautions
I thought that it was enough
Guarding myself
Putting on a hard exterior
Putting distance apart
Not letting anyone in
Being very selective
And yet i forgot
That people change
And never expecting is the only answer
Don’t dwell
On things you can’t change
The path you’ve take
The choice you’ve made
The past
Instead
Focus on your present
To shape your future
It is the only way you can (try to) stop regretting
It sucks
When insecurities get the best of you
You started doubting everything and everyone
I felt like an outsider
Among my own circle of friends
Being the odd one out
Sucks big time
And i know there’s no one else to blame but myself
Grow up is what i tell myself
They’re making plans without you
So what
It’s no big deal
But deep down
It hurts
Don’t settle
When you crave attention
When you sympathize
When you’re jealous
When you’re feeling lonely
When you’re feeling selfish
Don’t do that to someone
Don’t use someone that way
Cause they don’t deserve it
Cause everything going to back fire
Onto you
Settle
When you think that they’re the one
